2011 ~ HAPPY NEW YEAR !!

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I'm sorry for the loooong absences, but i was busy with pretty loads of things and what's more being on a full-time job.. while, beading is still on-going and between, time of attention & tending & listening to mum. Just a swift .. -> time goes.. a day went by, another day went by.. another .. another ..

Ok, back to this little blog where i would share some; arh.. guess rambling is more ya.. ha..ha.. anyway a BIG Thank You to all out there who has been reading or pass-by or drop-in guest.. or perhaps None of the above exit .. arh.. well .. never mind.. i will still "muse" myself happy ya.. after all Life is too short to be unhappy or uncomfortable with for long right?.. and for these reason, "Joy" is one of my resolution placing on second of my "wish list".. first is nothing but "Health".. Good health is wealth receive!!

There's still a couple of "muse" to share; on its way .. (.^) .. but as of now.. i would like to Wish ALL a BOUNTIFUL, JOYOUS, PEACEFUL, HEALTHY 2011 !!  Cheeers !! ...

Happy Holidays & Days Ahead...
Luv+ Hugs
Hobby Loft

Before i knew it..month is ending..

It's just hard to believe that before i actually steps into June..the month is ending soon in about another week.. gosh!!

Physically was not too well, 1st i had a "trip & fell" and gotten a little "tear" on my right palm whereas "blue-black" here & there over my knee and lower leg area. Just thought everything was fine, gotten infected with UTI.. oh.. gosh.. it was terrible.. Not only was the pain but i was scare stiff if anything was going worst, until Dr Eunice Chua, check, scan and test that everything is alright, and assured me that all i need is lots of water, a week of antibotics and cranberry juice subsequent. So.. i have recovered and well now, though tired in mental; physical; emotion occassionally resulting from mom's attention. Lord give me strength pls!!

Have not been blogging but craft still goes on at my "back-drop".. had my hands on sewing pouches and a bible cover for myself and ..hmmm.. amazingly they turn out nice especially the bible cover. a couple of pic here to "show-off" a little..

when appreciation becomes "depreciation"..

just wonder how many of us wanted to be recongized, noted, even applaud; or perhaps a better word i could think of "appreciate".. need not be rewarded in substance, but kind of just being noted. Yes, NOTED would just be enough - as for me noting just within their hearts, thoughts and not returning any "hurtful" or "insulting" words. That is my whole want, abundance of gladness, even joy knowing what i have done is being appreciated, being thought of..

but when appreciation is being taken for granted.. it truly hurts, disappoint. many a times, i did tell myself that perhaps they have just taken it as "habitual", "a routine", "a responsibility", "dutiful" .. guess the list could go on covering up for them, or merely consoleling myself; well, alright whatever, just let them be ya .. after all i did what i did.. as daughter, as good assistant ..

let go, let go of that urge of "appreciation".. it doesn't made me any richier; happier!! But non-acceptance, comparison ripe off every skin of peace, joy .. Lots of people gives that regular quote "GOD sees all that you have done, you will be rewarded" .. of coz i can't help but agree to that, but i would re-phrase, i don't need reward in return, what i need is LUV.. and please tell them, it is not a MUST or a RESPONSIBILITY or a DUTIFUL .. choices is there, just as HE has given us CHOICE.. so i chose to be loyal, filial, dutiful, responsible and not neglect.

well, perhaps i haven't learn hard enough to ignore "appreciation", okay.. i should let it "depreciate"!! let appreciation be depreciate to "ground zero" ... PAPA God, wash away my hurt and sew up my wounds and blanket me with your Great Favor & Love!! Thank Q..

Good O'ol American cooking . . .

it was fun..just like good ooold days, picking up utensils, messing up the kitchen. i still remember when i was juz 5+ old [erhhh.. once upon a time (.^) i used to tag along mum's side, "helping" her out in the kitchen.. ha..ha.. so to speak but well, at that age, is more of "playing" just like our "kampong" language call "masak-masak".. [it holds 2 meaning in malay tho i.e. "cook-cook" or "toy-play"]... ookiee.. back into the "yester-year scene".. i loves carrying those pots around; from floor to sink, but surely not to the stove area; that is a Restricted Zone for me.

i would help out the preparation of vegetables, more of "tearing" them up then cutting/chopping

i would try to "wash-up" dishes in a pail instead of in the sink coz i still can't reach even with the help of a stool. ha..ha.. lots of "oohs..NO.. NO.. wahhh.." from mum then anything else.. hee..hee..

hmm..could only trill back in memory lane.. while now i have the entire kitchen with me. no more yelling from mum, only "yammy" instead (*+*) .. most cooking especially chinese menus are either self taught through practical experienceing this & that or some viewing from TV and even flip flip of cook books.. hmm.. be bold.. test, try and yammmy good..

now tis american menu sure caught my eye and interest that i gave a go & learn it.. yes.. yes.. it was nice, lots of preparation work then chinese menu.. sequence of ingredients plays quite a big part unlike "my chinese style" of putting almost everything into the wok at a go.. controlling only over the fire of our stove.

alright so much of words & reflecs here's the college picture of what i have done :-

(1) clam chowder soup (2) baked marcoroni with cereal

(3) chicken pie (4) ice cream with rum & raisn ... yam yam

.. surprise ..

What a day to kick start with; a surprise that i receive - a big mail package. It was a package from the Humaneity Foundation. A magazine of their full & recent activities & goals, 2 leaflets "passport" of the child i sponsored! No expectations of any materials from them when i first chose to communicate to find out how i could go about reaching to those "less fortunate" & after receiving some highlights, explanatory & reg. forms; my chk went out to the mail.

The act of reaching out in some way was not my 1st trial.. I have been wanting to do something since sometime back.. Is it life changes that got me into this "deep thoughts" or is it some "setback" that has gotten me into these? No..no.. surely not.. but i would admit my first reach-out mission experience has indeed "drilled" & "roasted" my heart with that desire. The image of that women carrying her baby crying out just for milk has never left my memory bank since 1990s. We could provide her all the $$ we have, but it's useless. Source and outlet that could cater those needs is something unreachable in their place of origin. sighhh... At that moment we could only pray and even till today she is still in my intercessing list whenever my memory bank strike that particular "byte".

Well, is always great to lend a hand to those that is less, wherever they are, whoever they are, we need not know them, neither they need to know who we are.. bear in mind dun claim fame, name, recognization, appreciation or whatever returns. Contentment is the greatest source leading peace, joy & harmony to oneself. Am i bragging?.. ha..ha.. take it that i am then :)

am back.. but snail space tho..

hmm..gone mia for a short while., so where have i been lately? no-where.. still same me, same place, same thoughts but physically weak though. Would i say age is catching up? i won't deny, but surely it could be better, have to take care ya.. so i was kind of like gotten busy and a little "burn-out" frm attending to mum. Is not easy to be a "care-giver" [that's what they term or name]. Coping with her demands, her needs, her attention.. i juz slip off "coaxing myself"..

so accidentally, i hit the "depression mode" to ON instead of IDLE of supposedly should be OFF all d time :( But i thank The Lord for giving me psychology & counselling training way much earlier; so i notice the system was weird; such as i could clinch my fist, lock myself up in d bathroom & started wailing away. extra facial wash [crying] every night to sleep! i would even vent my anger on my clothes & clothes hanger!! Gosh!! was i up-tight? stress? mental? whatever??!!...

i didn't want to talk to anyone, didn't want to write, didn't even do any craft which i normally does & it helps very very much! i couldn't pray well, but i never stop "grumbling" to HIM, "speak" to HIM, "complain" to HIM! Perhaps this is also a way of "praying"! i shared & told my little cell group abt my feelings, haps & ask them help to keep me in prayers too; which i rarely does and they know, it must be serious or i did never ask, rather i used to be d jovial & encouraging one that pray for them instead.

of coz, things went lots better..; then; i had a bad sore throat resulted from a "chronic sinus" according to the ENT Doc. i was given 10 days medication to clear.. and that medication .. oh gosh.. send me daze..loose appetite.. looks like parts of engine needs over-haul .. :(

oookiee.. thank you PAPA God, i can smell the "freshness" of the morning air and "air-con" air!!
Thank You for Your Healing, Thank You for Your Comfort, Thank You for Your Strength, Thank You for EVERYTHING!! how could i ever cross humps, hurdles .. ... on my own ?!!

ok guess enough of bragging, would do some back-dated posting along d ways & days to come..
meanwhile, i pray good health to each & everyone.. :)

Works of students..

Remember just about a week plus ago, we begin our Beading Lesson? Project - Spiral Necklace. And; we planned to meet up the following week right.., but due to some of our commitment we delayed our session till yesterday. This time, we held at Janet's home.. hmm.. she even cooked us lunch..her sambal prawn was yammy.. Ooop.. too hungry forgotten about the camera !


We had some chat & updates of our personal "up's & downs"; or i would honestly say that is a good sharing or "thrashing" out of our "rambles & grumbles". Both me & Pauline could easily feel each other's emotion, hurts, downs and "what's-nots" when she has to care for her husband whose health is not too well of late, whilst as of me is my mama. :( Janet is like our "cooling fan/ blower", she not only gives us her "hearing hearts" but diverts our conversation off comfortly, when she saw our sharing wells-up our teary eyes. Hmmm.. this is indeed a nice ladies fellowship..


NOW.. Beading time!! When both Janet & Pauline pulls out their spiral project.. Oooh.. Wow..

i have never expect such beautiful result! (considering them their 1st time beading?!!) hah.. You can say perhaps that's your 1st lesson; so easily amazed. Nope.. nope; given that it can be my thousand or millions of lessons.. the result is still just one simple word "Stunning"!!

A similar sets of beads can be distributed out; yet i can assure that the end result or the finished project would always produce a different, pretty and each show casing their piece uniquely.

Janet's tried mixed of gold & silver and as she admitted not knowing how much beads is needed; she ran short of them! But she gotten it finished up with single strand of the mixed and wow.. result is unique & pretty!! .. By the way Janet, my apology for my "shaky" hands, the picture is a little "blurry".

Look at Pauline's piece wow... she had hers done into a spiral lariat. No idea of how she could place her heart-shaped focal glass bead; after she completed her 30cm length of spiral; instantly i felt that it did be nice ending it with the beautiful glass bead and on the other end, we did some "branching".. oooh.. lovely ya... (*.~))

Beading begins. . .

Both Pauline & Janet arrive my place about 12 plus. Unpack all the food that Pauline had prepared for the 4 of us; and in less then 15 min. we found ourselves eating and almost finishing most of the food. Ooop.. guess i am so hungry that i forgotten to take a snap shot of the delicious lunch.. ha..ha.. it was yummy.. Both ladies noted mom's appetite was good.. "yes..cos of the nice company you ladies gave!" - mom's reply .. :p)

After all the tidy & washing-up, i pull out those packed beads that i have prepared for them and yeah..our beading lesson start!..

The 1st 15-30 min. was like "all hands & feet tied together" fiddling with those beads and wondering which beads to thread & weave.. Janet kept saying that they both are slow & old students..while i told them that i might not be good in explaining & teaching them instead.. ha..

Hmm.. Nope.. is none of those above.. Is just that, this hobby craft is something or totally new to them; given that Pauline is good at patchworking. Well, in less then an hour, they will not only enjoying it, but eager and wanting to complete their project! They have gotten it right!! Yeah!


2 hrs simply passed by .. times up! I was surely glad to see both of them so happy and enjoying their beading time. Arrangement was tentatively made for next weekend for me to review & see to their completed spiral necklace!! It would not be at my place but instead at a park, with each of us bring some snacks.. wow.. itsn't that going to be a healthy & relax therapy? U beg!

Beading lesson ..

Yeah!.. my beads order has arrive..whoala.. they look pretty; hmm.. am sure Pauline & Janet would luv them ;)

Oh..yes, i'm so excited & looking forward to my so called "1st beading class" with tis 2 ladies. Venue would be @ my home as they wanted to pay my mom a visit, cook & bring lunch for both of us!

It was all a surprise, am caught unprepared actually. It was during our lunch catch-up [aftr almost a year] juz last weekend that they saw me wearing my own crafted "root-beer spiral" necklace. They will surely impress & arh..well, pester me into teaching them.

hmm.. sketch of instructions prepared + material now arrive, Oleh.. am ready!! Am very sure they both would enjoy .. yahooo.. :p

some sharing - Beads- since beads have been made in the Czech Republic for centuries, dating back to the days of Bohemia. The Czech beads do tend to vary a bit in size and shape, even within the same hank of beads, but are valued for their use in bead embroidery, as the difference in size allows for more exacting contours in the beadwork.